That's the medical name for today, "day -6." For the next 6 days I'll receive chemo that's 5 to 6 times stronger than anything I've had to date. On "day 0" I'll be "reborn" (they say it's your new birthday) and I'll receive my own stem cells to regrow my immune system that the chemo will have killed by that time, along with any residual disease. After that, I'll wait about two weeks in an isolation chamber in the hospital until my immune system grows back to a level that's safe for me to leave. Isation is a bit of a misnomer as I can have limited family visitors and potentially leave the room for a short walk around the transplant ward. But that's it.
Am I scared? Absolutely. Am I excited? Absolutely. Am I grateful? Absolutely.
This will be one of the hardest things I have endured in my life to date. No question. But I'm so excited to get this over with. It will likely and hopefully be the end or towards the end of a long road to a cure. So please, send me some good vibes and love from wherever you are. I need as much positive energy in the universe as possible over the coming weeks.
Thank you for all of your love and support to date!